{; Kandy Land ;}

{/Stuff I like to look at\}                                           
                                                 The grin you got from me when I loved you
  

 

{/;  The Beauty Spot was Borrowed, Now my Sweet Knife Rusts Tomorrow, I'm a confession that is waiting To Be Heard....;\}

 

                                  Eye Kandy  My Precious  Kandy Lane

 

[/{0001}\}]      I've suffered a loss. Not a death.. but a loss of trust and love. I've  wasted my  time on something I loved so much. There is no excuse and no reason why you did this.. And this is nothing I deserved. Nothing you say can change it, nothing you say will mend it, or repair it. You say that you love me, and didn't realize how much we were meant to be together until you screwed up.

                 I gave you, my love, my trust, my heart and my being. And that is something you can never have again.

                 All the tears that are shed, and the yelling we do and all the pain that we feel will never take this feeling away. This is far beyond anything I expected from you.
  

                 Our relationship was in a box and you just closed it. I loved you more than you will ever know. Many other people have been through this before, yet I feel so utterly alone. This is so tough. What you did was so wrong. I still feel like I am alone in this feeling.

                 We were supposed to get married and have a life together.. You and Me. You treated me so well. Then you just didn't want to talk to me. You pushed me away. I didn't want to believe that something was going on. But I knew that there was. I hate you with all my love, Joe. There is nothing that will sew this damaged, wounded heart. Nothing.

                              But you can damn well try....
 


                                  Eye Kandy  My Precious  Kandy Lane


   [/{0002}\]     It's April 24th. Last night we went out, as friends. It was actually very very nice and I loved it. But I just wish that we could have gone out like that and just be with each other without something bad having to happen first. Maybe if we can make things better (never the same) but better... that is something we can do often. But then again not too often because obviously if we did it like every week or every other week.. you'd eventually get bored of it. Just like you did before. I have faced the fact now that you are a cheater. You cheated. In a guys mind, it's not as big of a deal as it really really aught to be. I know that now you regret everything you did. Now your sorry and now you understand you made a very big mistake. And I am glad you feel like shit. I really am. It makes me feel better when I get to see you cry. And I hate it that I still love you. But I guess that's just how it is. 

 


[;/; Burn Your Empty Rain Down On ME Whisper Your Death Beat So Softly, Bend Your Knees at The Alter of My Ego ;\;]

 

 

             YOU DRAINED MY HEART...  AND MADE A SPADE....

                     BUT THERE'S STILL TRACES OF ME

                            IN YOUR VEINS

 

 

                                      

           

 

 

 

                On the Other Side Of This Line... Is The Break Of Time.............

 

        [/{0003}\]  5:30pm. April 24 still. The air isn't as dull to my lungs as it was the other day. My tears don't fall as easily, as they did the other day. The food to my lips, I taste it this time. Taste of your kiss, still bitter on the inside.

                    I hate complaining. But things are getting better. It's just sad that this even happened. I still feel sick on my stomach. Not too much from thinking about what has happened. Just the fact we aren't around each other because you screwed up. But enough of that now!


                    I am searching for a name for the kitten. I am racking my brain over it. LOL. I have no clue as to what to call it. Any help? Maybe I was thinking, 'Ludoe' from The Labyrinth. David Bowie Rules! The kitten is gray and white... and fluffy and oh so cute.. like a lil baby moose! I mean...    cat.
       
                    I got it!!! Bowie! His name, or her name.. Is Bowie... Thanx David!

        I Believe it's magic.
                                I believe it's magic.
                                                           I believe it's magic.




                    Yea, So any who.. Callie, Pepe, Manny, and the newest edition Bowie. Aw My lil kitties! I love them. Even if Pepe is a cat out of hell, for real.. I still love him. I guess I just love the buttholes.

 

                                 Eye Kandy  My Precious  Kandy Lane